goodbye

Just nine days before her thirty-second birthday
her short, beautiful life came to an abrupt end
early morning call; come quickly: too late there
fingers so limp in life now begin to stiffen
soft brown eyes become fixed on unseen horizons

Her name was Katerina. Went by Katie less often Kat
she reached out through her blog as “katsscribbles”
undaunted by confinement to life in a wheelchair
a warrior whose feats live on in her poetry and art
always eager to strive for that far away destination

she was my friend and confidant, she was my daughter
her passing leaves a terrible emptiness in my life
I ask myself “why Katie and not me?” and I cry
she was young and vibrant while I am getting old
as the song says “Farther Along” we’ll understand why

I loved you in life and I still love you in death
goodbye my daughter I’ll meet you in Paradise

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SIGHT

if I should ever lose my sight
one thing I should not have to study
I think I would remember light

having embraced you in a field of white
I will recall its folds around your body
if I should ever lose my sight

how to forget this frantic flight
should I ever learn to hold steady
I think I would remember light

as you refining day from night
with that promise held ready
if I should ever lose my sight

I might be given one dark night
a subtle glow from thoughts so pretty
I think I would remember light

yet small gods continue their spite
larger ones share a heartfelt pity
if I should ever lose my sight
I will always remember you as light

 

MOTHER

Your arms were always open
when I needed a hug.
Your heart understood
when I needed a friend.
Your gentle eyes were stern
when I needed a lesson.
Your strength and love guided me
when needed gave me wings to fly

We thank God
for those precious mothers,
who brought us into the world,
nurtured us, taught us, loved us,
encouraged us, strengthened us
have always been by our side.

We naturally think of Proverbs 31:10-30,
“Who can find a virtuous woman?
For her price is far above rubies….”
“My son, hear the instruction of thy father,
and forsake not the law of thy mother:
For they shall be an ornament of grace
unto thy head, and chains about thy neck”
(Prov. 1:8-9).

Song Titles

In the early morning rain
Ghost Riders in the Sky
Men with Broken Hearts
Sittin’ on the Dock of the Bay
I still miss someone

Raindrops keep falling on my head
Ain’t Nobody Loves Me
You were always on my Mind
Wishing you were somehow here again
Take these chains from my heart

There’s a fire deep in the Hill
Where the Mountain begins
Somewhere out there
It happened once before
Who knows where the time goes

Lord I hope this day is good
Funny how time slips away
I’m in a different world
On this side of goodbye
I have a dream
We’ll be together again

When a Man Loves a Woman
She thinks I still care
I can’t help myself
My Heart Will Go On
It’s all in the game
You keep running away

If you could read my mind
Oh what a circus
The way we were
out of control
When the lights went out in Georgia

You’ve lost that loving feeling
Heard it through the grapevine
It’s the same old song
Standing in the shadows of love
Looking over my shoulder
If Hollywood don’t need you

Where have all the flowers gone?
Listen to the radio
for the good times
Try to remember
Today I started loving you again
I will always love you

Looking out my back door
All I have to do is dream
She believes in me
The great pretender
Leaving on a jet plane
Turn! Turn! Turn!

Walls we are not forgotten
Send in the clowns
Anything but lonely
Mansion on a hill
From a distance
Everything is beautiful
What a wonderful world

Lay down beside me
There’ll be no teardrops tonight
Still
Both sides now
Another suitcase in another hall
The point of no return
The dark end of the street

A horse with no name
On the Road Again
Before the Next Teardrop Falls
Searching for love
Behind Closed Doors
for the good times

Sundown
Snakes crawl at night
Bad moon rising
Run through the jungle
Don’t be angry with me
House of the Rising Sun

If you don’t want my love
You might find I’m gone
Thank you for the music
These boots are made for walking
That’s the way love goes

Women Make a Fool of Me
Any dream will do
Long as I can see the light
Please release me
The Last Farewell
Who’ll stop the rain?

 

The Falling

I walked right off the edge of the world
just like the scientists of old had predicted
how far I fell I have no way of knowing
it seemed an eternity before I finally stopped
perhaps a more fitting word would be paused
for that is all I did on my downward plunge
into this region that consists of eternal shadow

I never made it all the way to the bottom
for somewhere in those deepening shadows
something caused me to open my weary eyes
and look back toward whence I had come

A tiny light was shining off in the distance
It was so intense I felt it take hold of me
and begin pulling me back upward
as does a rope lift a bucket from a well
that rope is long but the light grows
as I am slowly returned to that land
to once again share this beautiful love

That has been so freely extended to me
never again will I listen to those scientists
for love can only live in a place that offers
it reason to return once it has flown away

…..Jerry Marks